i feel so confused about everything
everything!
i wish i was back in chinatown with ella shopping away and having fun :(

i didn't go to fun fun fun fest only because i didn't really want to see any of those bands enough to pay 40 dollars for greyhound then another 40 for the entrance..i have to save up money which sucks but i know will pay off in the end
night school is so incredibly easy
i actually enjoy it and for the first time i have friends who go there so no more walking around and being bored during break
halloween was really fun i'm glad for the first time i had a boyfriend to be with me
megan also brought her new pet squirrel which attracted a lot of attention and a lot of scared kids..
well there's a lot to say but i have to get back to writing to my "pen pals" (yes i have pen pals) and save those ideas for their letters

i feel tired
school is still the same only i'm surprisingly getting really good grades this year
this month is crazy busy
my 17th bday is thursday, me ben and my sister are going to this nice french restaurant we've never been to
we're ordering snails and i want steak and fries (rare steak!) yes!
i'm really excited to try new food
friday is pataphysics and yip yip in austin, the perfect show that just so happened to fall on the day after my bday
Sunday is henry rollins, i have to save up so much money! gas money for austin and last year rollins was about $30, but 4 hours of comedy was worth it
Ben's 18th bday is next saturday and i (think) we're going to eat indian? I might not even go cause it might be more of a "family" thing eww
but i'm still going to see him no matter what and give him his super cool bday present i bought him :}
there is still so much more crap this month
the money situation is stressful
maker faire, polysics, kathy griffin, and maybe buy a squirrel

i had to put part 1 since i'll proobably be blogging more about it once it happens,
so anyways Power Pop Fest or PP fest is this friday. I'm going to have my mom pick me up from school early then drop me off at the greyhound station. I've ridden the greyhound to Austin before and well, it sucked. I just have to make sure i have my tape player, and food.
So once i get at the station in Austin, i thiiink Bryan will pick me up from there and go to the show. If he can't then..i need a new plan since Elissa doesn't have a car and ehhh that sucks. But that night i might spend the night at her house or with Bryan, still not sure. I have a lot of planning to do cause the last thing i want is to get stuck in Austin but i'm sure that won't happen..i just don't want to get stressed about this :/

more days until pop fest!!!
god i can't wait to see everyone, bands and friends

tomorrow is "prep day make-up day" so i can't miss that this time..i really hope me and ben have sculpture together even though i'm 99% sure we will since last time i checked there was only one sculpture class
and we got a new art teacher?? that's really weird..kinda disappointing since Mr.Haslam was an "okay" teacher and all...easy teacher i should say

i'm also going to help run a few errands with meggy tomorrow
pet store, go to her house, and somewhere else i can't remember
then sometime see ben? not sure what time yet

i read over 100 pages in my book today
the first day of school is the 25th so i have until then to finish this book and my notes.
i know i can do it, it all just takes so much time and i'd much rather be on ebay looking at dresses or talking to ben (but he should be calling...aaany second now) and i have to wake up early for tomorrow

i feel stress and happiness

again.


Ben<3

why can't i have a voice like this?
maybe me and future autoharp can

is it weird that i want summer to hurry up and finish? i've been reading my last of the three summer reading books, and i just want to finish this and start school. I feel like the closer it gets to school the closer i get to graduating and leaving to do whatever it is i do do. Oh god i really need to finish about 550 more pages of the book, i love reading but i hate when it's forced and i'd much rather be reading something i picked. i should be reading right now instead of doing this or looking at dresses on ebay..but jesus i just don't feel like it and how can i concentrate when my boyfriend will be coming over later and all i want to do is be with him..i feel happy and stressed at the same time..more happy though :)

one more day of summer school!
tomorrow is a free day and "class party" so pretty much do nothing but eat junk food people bring to class and watch movies
So glad i'm done with this now all i need is to get my high school senior year done :)

Power Pop fest is in a couple weeks too! yes!

<3

missed my AM class
me and ben should really start going to sleep early :/
so the extra hours of sleep did help :)
now i have to go to my PM economics class and do my presentation


Then my baby gets to come over later and hang out with me for a little :D
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i can't wait to see him

:D

Okay, well i opened up a blog from blogspot, ambarnavarro.blogspot.com but i don't know i guess i like this better cause i actually have friends who have this, eh who knows
i've been looking at a lot of comics lately and it sucks that the comic store down the street closed :(
i was gonna ask for a job there and it'd be so convenient since it's so close and bike accessible!
i drew ben a comic of us that i need to scan and showed it to him yesterday
it made him laugh so i'm assuming he liked it :)
me and him were supposed to meet up today but i ended up bike riding by myself and doing book notes at the playground
i was bummed that i didn't get to see him, but i did see him the day before and i feel so selfish cause i want to see him everyday and whenever possible, but i know one day we will
Yesterday was so fun with him at my house
for one, he got to see my new disco* ball which really set the mood,
and then he got to stay longer than usual but i always get sad when he has to ride away home :(
still though, i feel happy for once :)

<333